| it's funny how some people think they gain popularity becuz ppl talk bout them.. it's called comparing and contrasting them from a person to a bitch.. hmm.. my friendship w/Mark is everlasting and there's no other explanation.. my relationship with Gelmar is forever and there's no doubt about it.. I've been thinking about a lot of things lately.. and I'm beginning to realize more shit.. Like I can't and won't and never will go back to the part of my life where I was confused about who should I be with.. It's been clear to me and I can admit that I've been blinded by temptation and lost words that shud've been going thru my ears when I wasn't in love.. Mark telling me that he loves me and no one else becuz there's no one out there for him for the fact that I'm "wifey" material.. it's not gonna be like that anymore.. I'm done and I'm thru.. Maybe he should've realized a long time ago in his heart that he was playing with my feelings and emotions.. that he was being a player and now he admits.. I'm sorry but there is no "us" in a love relationship.. it's more like a "friend" relationship and I don't really need to apologize for anything becuz all I ever did was show him how much I wanted to be with him but now it's broken into pieces of a puzzle and nothing can put it back together except going back in the past and undoing what he did  .. now.. not even that can change my mind.. becuz I'm going crazy for Gelmar.. I miss him every second.. every moment in my life.. every time I see couples kissing and holding hands.. I wonder if we'll be together forever.. He makes me feel like I don't have to try and be someone else.. I just can be myself and show him that I'm different.. No one knows me better than the ppl who actually took the time to do so..  .. Gelmar.. my heart skips a beat for his name.. my heart aches for him to be by my side.. I've never got to explain this love for him but damn! It's a wonderful feeling! It's like flowers getting thrown in the air and just the presence of two people in love, dancing and gazing at each other without knowing there are other people out there!  .. |
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| | yay we're on our break now... damns cant wait for it to end cuz im bouta fight some bitch.. damns... anyhoo and three more weeks until i get my L's ... yay!! hhahaha | |
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| oh man... gladys updated me on how mark is talking to someone new again... haha how hilarious.. i just hope he won't mess up this time because she is a nice person.. i met her once... anyways... one more month to go until i get my LICENSE oh yeah!!  ... my mom's been acting up lately.. it's annoying.. she's a bitch.. geez... she needs to get off my business... stupid shit... hella NOSY... yup yup... so irritating now!!! we've got one more week until our fall break!!! yay can't wait for that one!! anyway... FUCK MARK ANTHONY PAMO... stupid man whore... needs to get a life... a life where he knows his closest 2nd family doesn't like him as much anymore... geez i could say that he was the biggest regret in my life and i hate him.... wooh... had to get that off my chest... and to that bitch: NO I'M NOT CUSSING AT YOU AND BITCHING AT YOU BECAUSE I CAN'T HAVE YOU STUPID BITCH... IT'S FOR A MERE FACT THAT YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKEN PLAYER AND A DUMB AND RETARDED DRAG QUEEN.. STUPID SELFISH ASSHOLE... so... life is all bad... schoool issss ssoooo boring.... what can i say?? it's getting to that "MOODY" time of the year and im on my freakin period... man that's killt!! haha anyhoo g2g... i'm bored just typing... and yes i'm still with my man.. haha yay for us... forever more we're still in ... haha... lovers! |
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| oh yess.... two more freakin months til I get my L's... how amazing is that dude?? haha but yeah so far so good... I got told I made it into SENIOR COUNCIL!! Something I've been looking forward to this year as well as dancing for the night rally coming up on the 28th of this month! wow so excited... speaking of September... my best friend's birthday is coming up and I don't know what the fuck to get him! Oh gosh! I was going to definitely drop car but not anymore because he doesn't want to and besides, he has other freakin plans in mind... anyways me and Gelmar are doing GREAT! I couldn't ask for anything better... Yay! I see him like everyday after school because I have a 7th period and I started today! Yay! And... hm... nothing much really... wells Imma go... I'm bored... ok wells bye! |
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| hmm.. life is so long... and live life to the fullest is wat they all say... man i'm so bored.. esp. at home and watsoever... anyways... i'm bouta get my license in like... um... iono... like four or three months?? man months go by slowly.. but the days go by slower... geesh... oh yeah i still have no freakin idea wat kinda car i shud get... haha i've been thinking i shud just ask my freakin parents for a bmw m3 and so on... yeah i shud totally go for that.. why not?? it's not like anyone has that at school right?? yeah people go on to say im a rich person but really... my parents just work REALLY and EXTRA hard... besides I think my mom's going to quit her job anyways... yeah cuz of some bitch... JEALOUS bitches these days.. they just don't know when to stop TALKING SHIT... geez... hmm... I should report crimes now... get at least $500 for it... shit I'm broke... hahaa for reals I really need it... lols my cuzin Mark told me and that's a pretty bright idea... but wat to report?? haha man... ok no offense but I really do wish some bitches would stop hatin... haha.. like on fucken myspace... they request to be friends and then take u off their friend's list is just plain bullshit!!
man fuck them!! i don't need to associate with bitches like that... they get on my damn nerves... geez... haha ok byers!! gotta go car shopping and i think my hubby's calling me!! |
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